Happy Bloggerday to me... WOW! It's hard to believe it's been one year since my first attempt at blogging. Sixty-five journals of my thoughts over one year... That's 5.416 logs per month. I'm not sure if that's good or not.

Anyhow, it's therapeutic if anything. To look back over the year and see where I was and what was going on. Tragedy, Life, Death, Celebrations, Hope. What a journey.

However, I wonder after a year if I have maintained, in any way, the idea of "Daily being lead by the Spirit." I realize I get in the way of Spiritual things many, many times and other times ignore the Spirit completely. As I drove home tonight, the words of this song hit me.

I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from You
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do

What's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

(chorus)
I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light

The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control

Tell me, what's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

Honesty becomes me
[There's nothing left to lose]
The secrets that did run me
[In Your presence are defused]
Pride has no position
[And riches have no worth]
The fame that once did cover me
[Has been sentenced to this Earth]
Has been sentenced to this Earth

Tell me, what's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light

"In the Light" by DC Talk

It's tough to realize how true this song is about me. (I wish it be be played at my funeral)

Well, I will attempt another year of myself exposed and so I'll end this momentous blog with this prayer.

I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light

Amen.
johno~